story

theres a girl i really really love a lot. so much i never thought that i will be living and doing my best in life cos of her. many times i cried, many times i got sad, many times i got pissed off. but all these cannot be compared to the number of times i smiled, number of times i laughed, and number of times i felt loved cos of her. why bother remembering all those sad stuff when the happy stuff are out there begging for you to keep them to make yourself happy? people may not be able to see it but i can feel it myself. happiness. i really felt it from you. which girl can make u go crazy over her and can make u cry sad love smile laugh all at once? no one but her. its this weird feeling i get that i wanna treasure her. she's someone too dear to me for me to lose.

However, though how much i dont wish to lose her, and maybe how much she dont wish to lose me. there will always be a time when she will get tired of me. tired of my character, tired of my attitude. this is also the day i will fear most to come. though i pray it wont come soon, because i really cannot take it without her. many would say i am over-obsessive. some would say this is true love. others will think tch after a while will be fine. problem is. which is the correct answer? i asked myself what will happen for the first week without her. answer, cry for a week. what bout a month without her. cry for a week. stop, and cry again if i ever see her. for a year? i dont think i can live that long for a year. i may be a very emotional person, but i know that i cannot always keep you with me and letting you see me cry. it might be a form of pity from u at times, or maybe a sense of guilt. i dont wish to have you feel that way for me... i really hope that its cause you love me so you wish to stay with me. if not its a pointless relationship and making me smile and just to break me down again. please don't. i really wish to be able to be the guy you will love and keep for as long as possible... perhaps i am really asking too much already. i have to work slowly towards my goal. being a guy with humor, cheerful and optimistic. it wont be easy, but i will try my very best. i will.

till then... please be with me, support me. because i really love you, and i cant bear to leave you... no matter how selfish this is... i really really am telling the truth...