over

lol... so we are finally over. the day the results come out, the day i no longer attracts ur attention and the day i am no longer needed in your life. hahaha.. guess no matter how mentally prepared i am, when the truth strikes it will still hurt a lot. well, i guess i really am not capable to make u happy and smile. just not the love you seek i guess. haha right from the start its just a self denial. well i tried hard. i really tried. put in more effort than anything else on you, give you my everything, especially time, skipped schools with u, skip lectures, hahaha almost everything i can think of. its so fun. thinking bout the watami soup now and how we will use to keep adding soup.... hahaha... sadly.. its just all memories already. we wont be the same. ur feelings have changed... we drifted apart. guess the inevitable has arrived. i dreaded it a lot. the promise to go prom together to dance. the promise to go thru ns together.... i guess.... its just gonna remain there as words. the last thing i will want to see is to get u attached. not when im in sch... really. i cant take the blow de. hahaha. it sucks. well... my feelings u know it better than anything.

im gonna miss so many things. hugging you, kisses, lepak time with u, having meals, kway chap, woodlands mart, fetching mei mei from tuition, going swimming, movies, arcade, pool, drinking, going library, buffets, going home together, take cabs trains bus, hanging out at home, staircase, nexus, tom yam soup in canteen, yishun bali thai and so much more..... i can hardly list them all out... yea yea im crying with every letter i type because all these are the best memories i ever have with you... i walked past the hong kong dessert shop at amk jubilee there. still remembered u eating the ice cream thing. and u burpppped! then everyone stared at me instead... hahah all the time. u burped i get stared at. its just so interesting. hahaha...

next was the first place we had dinner together. that was with elaine and huitien to be exact. yupp astons, hahaha. went there and think again. nth much. just memories. followed by pool and then hub... pepper lunch blahblah~ hahaha theres just so many places. the last place i will want to go to, will be amk hill park. the place where i burn stuff. too lazy to climb la hahaha. guess i will be making my way to admiralty soon alone just to view back all the places we been to, all the memories... hahaha dont call me emo or what. its just me. i love the place a lot i wanna be there. i might not be able to be there anymore i want to feel it again... so yea.

well... things are gonna change so much eh... kinda unbelievable already... hahaha... guess im just gonna be someone u used to know, and you are gonna be someone i miss a lot. spray the perfume wisely. so i can track u with my nose. lol! i guess... its time to stop already... this blog will end together with us... good night joey... you may not want to hear this or even see this, but it might be the last time u hear me say this. i love you. joey lim zu er. its with regrets, i cannot make u smile. dont think that it ended badly. its much better than what i expected le. if u think u are dirty, u arent. because i dont aim for those stuff on u. i aim for ur heart. but  i failed. u are a great girl, great looks, great maturity, just too temperamental. other than that, i would praise everything of yours... do take care of yourself. for i am no longer having the rights too already. i will miss you a lot. go bah... and search for the life u seek. jiayou. im just a chapter of your life...