goodbye

再见了我的爱人。那个我爱的，同时也爱我的那个人。永远将见不了的你。再见了。

4 days

4 days left. and 9 days to go. plz just let me pull thru this... im really tired already

question

so u asked me if im still crying... yes i am.. and even tonight i am still. doing work. still cry. the night is so quiet... i miss the times when i will call u. but heck. who does? as i stare blankly into the skies and anticipating a full moon soon. i rmb the time when we met it was a full moon... just far... too much memories. i dunno how much longer can i hold myself....

sighs

even till today. i pray that u will come back. but i know thats not possible anymore. im just living in my own world

oh well. i guess with these memories.. it should be enough... and maybe im happy enough le bah.. hahaha.

hopefully

i hope... this wil be the last time i cry when ppl ask bout me and u... haha that wei li asked today after bball. and dahell my emotions get the better of me... oh boy oh boy ")

my heart

boy sure feels heavy everytime i see you. haha in school not in school also. lol @pizza hut. haiz... at least im glad u are doing well now i guess? lol. jiayou bah...

if i say

if i tell u i still love you. you might think its a lie. if i say i dont love you. i really am lying to myself. hahaha what kind of love last this long. oh boy... how terrible this feeling can get

singing your love songs

the title says it all :)

wa piang

till now still no mood study. no mood to even play. all i do is eat sleep stone. dafuq... haiz..

breathe... over and over again

this feeling

strange feelings.. im finally feeling numb...
but yet at the same time... feeling sour... and painful...
dafuq do i still cry... why...

dear girl...

dear girl.. i really love you... and please. do know that i am here for you... though i cant be there for u now... no matter what. life goes on. :)

movie

dont wish to enter a movie theater so badly... just dont want to

work work...

homework for now.... after promos will be hospital work... followed by part time work. lol

i wonder

i wonder how are you right now... is everything fine? haiz... i guess u cant feel anywhere better maybe... it sucks. went to chong pang. had tom yam soup. all those taste and flavours and memories.. they just keep pouring in. and it just had to rain. for god sake it just had to rain... horrible emotions...

just a dream

every night i cry

every night i cry the moment i think bout u. the moment i think bout all that ive done. the moment i think bout all those feelings i had... it just sucks so much... i cant stop crying... i hope its not depression im suffering from

if only..

if only you know how much i still love you, how much i miss you.. will you still come and hurt me again?

fack off

fack off fack off fack off fack off fack offfffffffffff if u dont have better things to say to me. GTFO! just like how u treated me when i am down sinister

shockwave therapy

boooom! went for shockwave therapy. omfg $250 per session. that made a hole in my wallet man. so fucking pain. before that required ultra sound scan. end up realize my right knee is out of shape. tendons inflammed and of course the entire knee got problem. so end up went for this stupid therapy. and for 20 min i was under this idiotic pain. not like hammer hitting but more like needles piercing. for freakin 20 mins... lucky the doc talked to me to distract me from this damn pain...

why do i sitll dream bout you... this time its so vivid. everything that is said... every action... haiz... again and again....

still can't forget

i still can't forget that last touch of your face... that lats hug... and those last words i ever said to you...

time is precious

time is running out. guess really should chiong le. been procrastinating far too much. this sucks a lot man. zzz hate staying at home. dad is being a nuisance. nag with all the shit. so much telling of stories and trying to be a dick. i hate being at home.

physics. math. chem. almost everything. haiz.... i dont wish to die here.

you look different already...

looking at ur photos now... and the past. you look so different.. u used to look more beautiful... more attractive... but right now. all that i see of you is a dull and no longer that attractive anymore... i dont know... perhaps its just perceptions... haiz