things i wanna say to you

baby, there are so many freaking things i wanna tell you. but only saying it in person will work. because i do have fears.

dear. first and foremost. i gonna tell you, though making me so sad so many times and hurting me like mad. but i love you, for being the cheerful girl, the lovely joey, and make me wanna be with you. its because i feel blessed to be able to be with you dear. really really. i love you.

i quit gambling, mahjong, computer games and even drinking, i changed my lifestyle so much. i really hoped that this way i could have maximal time and love for you.

i dont wanna see you feeling sad cos of me, cry cos of me, mad at me and less say suffer cos of me. i want you to be feel good to have me, happy and smile cos of me. and i wanna do that for you. to the very best i can.

things are very tense right now. i really pray monday will come fast. i wanna meet u so badly. its not bout the pain and suffering,its about the amount of happiness we both shared. i love being with you. and i wont even waste any moment with you.

I beg you. i really am begging you, to not turn down the date for monday. joey. really dont.u are still my baby nonetheless.