new life?

come to think bout it, a lot has happened between.... but my heart is still kinda solid. i dunno what that means, i dont even know if its good or bad, for both either you and me. well at least you know that there is one person out here who is constantly behind u that is. after the most recent happening, i felt a great knock back. its like, i've done so much. but nth can be compared to make u think of me. lol. selfish thinking. but since i love you, i just thought maybe i should let u do what u want, and let time decide. if time also couldnt decide then i will decide it. because ultimately i only want you to be happy. and if there is by any chance that thing happening... i have no choice, really. but to let you go. but what happens after that, not for you to care anymore. we cant face each other in sch anymore. i always had this believe, whether in the past or not, just feels this way to me, when you have fully committed and loved a person, if u two ever breakup, the feeling and friendship wont ever be there again. its virtually impossible to be friends again. really. from what i observe of others and myself too. lol. hatred will stand in instead of friendship, hatred for breaking a person's heart. i guess.

oh well. im going too far am i? haha things are going well now aint it. im happy with the way things are. i could spend precious times with you and stuff like that. oh well. mid years coming le. guess we both will be busy. i will be looking forward to you coming back baby. in fact i am already. haha you haven't even leave im already hoping u to be back with me liao. gosh. the month of May sure is a harsh one. so many obstacles between us and stuff. well 10 june i get laptop. 11 june i wanna ask baby out for a date. 11 june kinda special day for us. haha. i hope we can spend it together. unless kim comes that day and u all decides to celebrate it. lol. i dunno. lalalala~ baby. you so pretty, i dont even hope u to be famous. being famous may mean i will have more 'competitors', or more people trying to get closer to you. haha. all those are just fears for me. well, just do what you want, as long as you are happy can le. :) love you baby. hope to see you back real soon!!!! <3