im really missing you like mad. things are damn tense nowadays between us. i dont like. it sucks. i really miss you a lot... perhaps i have been asking too much from you...
it seems like im always with you and stuff, and those times spent are just so regular... i wanna go out with you like its special. i really am missing you... tmr, sat u aint free. sun i dont know what will happen less say monday. tues and wed there's school event. i dont know what will happen. time is ticking joey, but our love seems to be fading... i dont want it to fade. i really love you a lot. love brings hurt. hurt brings hate, and hate makes us forget. but when we forget and think bout it, we start to miss, when we miss, it means we are loving again... i really really love you dear...
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
over you - daughtry
determination
yea i know i gotta recover first before i can do anything. but i know my situation very well. i aint recovering fast enough. these are injuries that are being built up over the years. its hard to heal. so i guess the only way to deal with it is to carry on with it? i don't know. i won't cry or complain bout it anymore. i guess? its like smth i have to live with for at least a few years or so?
its about the desire, and not the limitations. i guess its true. take our relationship for example. i wanna be with you, so im willing to give up a lot of things. guess the same rule applies here, if i want it i gotta go for it and leave some things behind. its the law of equivalent exchange. but im just scared the price is too high to pay :/ lol we shall see what happens in the future bah.
been thinking a lot, perhaps far too much recently. is it time to stop?
its about the desire, and not the limitations. i guess its true. take our relationship for example. i wanna be with you, so im willing to give up a lot of things. guess the same rule applies here, if i want it i gotta go for it and leave some things behind. its the law of equivalent exchange. but im just scared the price is too high to pay :/ lol we shall see what happens in the future bah.
been thinking a lot, perhaps far too much recently. is it time to stop?
Monday, June 25, 2012
heartbroken. really heartbroken
joey.... where is the joey that i love? what is becoming of her? why one incident change her so much? love died? no it won't.
you know what it feels to be unable to help the person that you love?
you know how it feels to be unable to hold the person that you love?
you know what it means to be unable to love somebody that you really love?
you know what it feels to be making a CHOICE whether to love someone or not?
we have been together for 5 mths. 5 freaking months and now this stunt comes around again. i dont believe your love is lost. i believe is that u are hurt by what he says. love isnt lost. it never is, you just couldn't bring yourself to look at it again. you are afraid of being hurt by it. but the question is, have i ever hurt you? i never intended to hurt you at all. i never in my fucking life every wish to hurt you. i love you so much it hurts me even more that you are saying you gotta make a choice. what am i to you? so the past 5 mth you have been playing with me? is that what that means? no i dont believe. i love joey, and i know she loves me, but whats happening? why is this happening? im crying over and over again. but since that monday i stopped crying. i really thought things are going to get better. but what's this? its not getting better, i fear its getting worse.
i know it might seem like its all bout me me and me. but have you given urself the chance to let it go? for someone who no longer gives a damn bout you, have you ever thought of letting it go? that person who no longer treasures you, no longer worthy of love from you? you aren't even giving yourself a chance to recover.
what so you dont want me to love you anymore? you dont want me to hold you anymore? you dont want me to send you home anymore? if u say so at this instance, i will let you go. i would. because i have already given you my heart and everything, its yours to keep and yours to throw. but let me tell you this, love that is once deeply appreciated by the other party can never be easily forgotten. it will forever leave a scar there. a scar you will wish to forget. but its a scar it won't go away. memories dont fail. it is whether you are able to pick yourself up and not let yourself get hurt from those memories. that's the best way to move on in life. how to do that depends on yourself.
even with all this, i still love you, terribly. good night my love.
you know what it feels to be unable to help the person that you love?
you know how it feels to be unable to hold the person that you love?
you know what it means to be unable to love somebody that you really love?
you know what it feels to be making a CHOICE whether to love someone or not?
we have been together for 5 mths. 5 freaking months and now this stunt comes around again. i dont believe your love is lost. i believe is that u are hurt by what he says. love isnt lost. it never is, you just couldn't bring yourself to look at it again. you are afraid of being hurt by it. but the question is, have i ever hurt you? i never intended to hurt you at all. i never in my fucking life every wish to hurt you. i love you so much it hurts me even more that you are saying you gotta make a choice. what am i to you? so the past 5 mth you have been playing with me? is that what that means? no i dont believe. i love joey, and i know she loves me, but whats happening? why is this happening? im crying over and over again. but since that monday i stopped crying. i really thought things are going to get better. but what's this? its not getting better, i fear its getting worse.
i know it might seem like its all bout me me and me. but have you given urself the chance to let it go? for someone who no longer gives a damn bout you, have you ever thought of letting it go? that person who no longer treasures you, no longer worthy of love from you? you aren't even giving yourself a chance to recover.
what so you dont want me to love you anymore? you dont want me to hold you anymore? you dont want me to send you home anymore? if u say so at this instance, i will let you go. i would. because i have already given you my heart and everything, its yours to keep and yours to throw. but let me tell you this, love that is once deeply appreciated by the other party can never be easily forgotten. it will forever leave a scar there. a scar you will wish to forget. but its a scar it won't go away. memories dont fail. it is whether you are able to pick yourself up and not let yourself get hurt from those memories. that's the best way to move on in life. how to do that depends on yourself.
even with all this, i still love you, terribly. good night my love.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
my lover
林祖儿， gary loves you a lot. and wont even dream of leaving you. you are so impt to him. you let him believe in loving a person, you let him felt a different type of love, something that he really really wants. that type of love, can only be given by you. i love you baby, forever will, till the day you decided to give up on us. jiayou baby, dont be sad anymore le. i wanna see you smile, be happy. dont fake it. believe in it.
Monday, June 18, 2012
memories i wont forget:
-our first hugs and kisses, and u lying on my shoulder to sleep
-sending you home. 208 steps to your lift from the start of the road.
- piggy you back home on that saturday.
-being at my home and your home
-dinner at woodlands mart
-haircut at zi ao's mum
-shopping
-watami
-tracknfield
-nexus
-canteen
-vball court
-ccab
-phs
-pool
-movies
-mac breakfasts
-skipping lessons
-my birthday
-buffets
-bus rides
-nyan cat
-millionaire
-math tests
-chinese hmwk
-bubble tea
-songs
-valentines day
-you, and only you.
first time acting cool on photos
track and field
after watami
valentines day
smile joey smile
im still learning how to smile
pretty girl on first date with me to library
doggie~
chinese new year, my first photo of you.
more in my mind as memories. these pictures are only a minor part of me. they can never describe all the love and memories i have of you... <3 you so much... thank you for all that you have ever done for me. im more than just being grateful, its a type of love and relationship i will never wish to forget. Joey. gary. loves. you.
-our first hugs and kisses, and u lying on my shoulder to sleep
-sending you home. 208 steps to your lift from the start of the road.
- piggy you back home on that saturday.
-being at my home and your home
-dinner at woodlands mart
-haircut at zi ao's mum
-shopping
-watami
-tracknfield
-nexus
-canteen
-vball court
-ccab
-phs
-pool
-movies
-mac breakfasts
-skipping lessons
-my birthday
-buffets
-bus rides
-nyan cat
-millionaire
-math tests
-chinese hmwk
-bubble tea
-songs
-valentines day
-you, and only you.
more in my mind as memories. these pictures are only a minor part of me. they can never describe all the love and memories i have of you... <3 you so much... thank you for all that you have ever done for me. im more than just being grateful, its a type of love and relationship i will never wish to forget. Joey. gary. loves. you.
7days it has been. From that day. I gave u lanvin Paris perfume. U said u love it a lot and wanted it. I tot it will he great as a last gift. After uopen it. I dunno. You say we will meet again. Becauseright now nth will happen to us, because you need me. So at this moment. I wonder if its love, or because of need. I chose to believe you still love me.
3days later we met again. U hugged me when i was feeling low. U question me when i kept looking around. I know u love me a lot still
Today you tell me.you need a break, because you dont feel for anyone, everything is neutral. But this is what I fear most. Because if even myself u feel neutral towards... There's a possibility the love is already lost. Im scared, hurt, but I know u ain't feeling good at all. I wanna try my best to understand you, let you take your break. And all that I would pray for, is for you to come back to me when you are done. You aren't just stress my dear. Its more than stress. You have a lot of things on your mind to worry bout. But none are mine. Hahaha oh well... Hope u rest well enough Joey, theres still a guy who loves you waiting for you here.
3days later we met again. U hugged me when i was feeling low. U question me when i kept looking around. I know u love me a lot still
Today you tell me.you need a break, because you dont feel for anyone, everything is neutral. But this is what I fear most. Because if even myself u feel neutral towards... There's a possibility the love is already lost. Im scared, hurt, but I know u ain't feeling good at all. I wanna try my best to understand you, let you take your break. And all that I would pray for, is for you to come back to me when you are done. You aren't just stress my dear. Its more than stress. You have a lot of things on your mind to worry bout. But none are mine. Hahaha oh well... Hope u rest well enough Joey, theres still a guy who loves you waiting for you here.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
my last post
Friday, June 8, 2012
things i wanna say to you
baby, there are so many freaking things i wanna tell you. but only saying it in person will work. because i do have fears.
dear. first and foremost. i gonna tell you, though making me so sad so many times and hurting me like mad. but i love you, for being the cheerful girl, the lovely joey, and make me wanna be with you. its because i feel blessed to be able to be with you dear. really really. i love you.
i quit gambling, mahjong, computer games and even drinking, i changed my lifestyle so much. i really hoped that this way i could have maximal time and love for you.
i dont wanna see you feeling sad cos of me, cry cos of me, mad at me and less say suffer cos of me. i want you to be feel good to have me, happy and smile cos of me. and i wanna do that for you. to the very best i can.
things are very tense right now. i really pray monday will come fast. i wanna meet u so badly. its not bout the pain and suffering,its about the amount of happiness we both shared. i love being with you. and i wont even waste any moment with you.
I beg you. i really am begging you, to not turn down the date for monday. joey. really dont.u are still my baby nonetheless.
dear. first and foremost. i gonna tell you, though making me so sad so many times and hurting me like mad. but i love you, for being the cheerful girl, the lovely joey, and make me wanna be with you. its because i feel blessed to be able to be with you dear. really really. i love you.
i quit gambling, mahjong, computer games and even drinking, i changed my lifestyle so much. i really hoped that this way i could have maximal time and love for you.
i dont wanna see you feeling sad cos of me, cry cos of me, mad at me and less say suffer cos of me. i want you to be feel good to have me, happy and smile cos of me. and i wanna do that for you. to the very best i can.
things are very tense right now. i really pray monday will come fast. i wanna meet u so badly. its not bout the pain and suffering,its about the amount of happiness we both shared. i love being with you. and i wont even waste any moment with you.
I beg you. i really am begging you, to not turn down the date for monday. joey. really dont.u are still my baby nonetheless.
fall for you
though its the song sherilynn listened to, but here i am, feeling the same way.
fall for you - secondhand serenade
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
iall these might just be rubbish to you. but to me, its a way of showing how much i love you. i dont want you to be sad. neither do i want to be sad. i just wanna have the best for us. really... no matter how many times, or how much im hurt, i am still fighting to love you. because joey, a girl like you is impossible to find.
here without you
haha, yea really here without you. my heart feels very empty.
lol you know of this song even better than me. i love you joey.
what about now
chris daughtry's song. old but gold.
http://youtu.be/roDXSHSEuoo
http://youtu.be/roDXSHSEuoo
some lyrics posed a certain meaning to me. and baby it helps me to love you harder. i still wanna try my to give u my best.
change the colors of the sky
and open up to
the ways you made me feel alive
the ways i loved you
for all the things that never died
to make it through the night
love will find you
what about now?
what about today?
what if you're making me all that i was meant to be?
what if our love never went away?
what if it's lost behind words we could never find?
baby, before it's too late
what about now?
baby
baby~ love you. i really hope things will get better. dont get mad at me please... :( love you...
morning
waking up early in the morning at 6.30, i didnt know what i should do. im scared. scared to go over to your place, im scared, of being lonely. i don't even know where to go to. how are you feeling now? i hope u aren't mad at me still my dear. i dunno why all these happen all of a sudden. and stuff. yea of course im damn sad i couldnt go over to your place duh.. lol. but guess u really dont wish to see me. i dont have a choice do i? lol. oh well. hope things will get better bah! :) love you dear, really really love you a lot. hope to see you soon baby. :)
Hey joey. I know u are fucking mad at me still. But really. Tmr. Actually is not because I needed to meet you. Its more of a want. I want to spend more precious time with you. I really do. Mid years are coming. I know u will wanna spend more time studying. And I intend to just give u your own time to study after that. Really... After Monday at least. I missed you like hell im dying to meet you. You know when you told me Friday go your house I was so elated. Nth could describe that happiness within me. But now that things are becoming to this stage. I kinda reflect on my own actions. Perhaps.i really have held u too tight le. I can only.say im scared that's why. Well. I haven't been emoing for.quite some time le. Its just saddening to see a friend being like this. I've learnt to accept the fact already my dear...
oh well. Nth will be of any use already. U aren't a toy. That's all i can say. I are my baby. I love you joey. Good night. Sweet dreams. Take care.and i will love you forever forever and always.
oh well. Nth will be of any use already. U aren't a toy. That's all i can say. I are my baby. I love you joey. Good night. Sweet dreams. Take care.and i will love you forever forever and always.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
foolishness
im sorry. i really am. when i appreciate what you did for me just now and i said some rubbish. what the fuck was i thinking... really... i dunno what to say now. one part im sorry, the other im heartbroken to see you say that on twitter. i dunno what to feel right now. i really dont. i just wish tmr can come fast so i can see you. i really needed to see you badly. im feeling much better with vincent already. and thankyou baby for that. if not cos of u i wouldnt have even the courage to go to him at all.
i dunno how u are feeling right now. i really dont. im sorry baby. i love you, please dont be mad at me anymore. everyday i just hope u reach home safe and sound and tell me hey gary i reach home le. at least i will feel better this way. maybe you dont know how impt it is to me to know that you are back home safely. it gives me a peace in my mind ok dear is back home safe le. thats good. really...
commitment. baby. u already did, by meeting me when i needed you to, its already a great commitment. today especially. i missed you so, and that i needed comfort as well. u were there for me, no words can express the feeling i have yknow... those happiness i have, i felt real happy today morning. really. though a lot of dumb stuffs happened to me... lol... its ok if u dont wish to commit the way u think what commitment is, but u already did in my opinion. really...
please forgive me baby, reply me soon please... and see you tmr baby. i pray things will get better. i really do. i love you joey.
when i meant for baby to be my girlfriend. i'm not asking for commitment. im asking for extra security. thats all... dont be mistaken, i just wanted to have the feeling of loving you more.
i dunno how u are feeling right now. i really dont. im sorry baby. i love you, please dont be mad at me anymore. everyday i just hope u reach home safe and sound and tell me hey gary i reach home le. at least i will feel better this way. maybe you dont know how impt it is to me to know that you are back home safely. it gives me a peace in my mind ok dear is back home safe le. thats good. really...
commitment. baby. u already did, by meeting me when i needed you to, its already a great commitment. today especially. i missed you so, and that i needed comfort as well. u were there for me, no words can express the feeling i have yknow... those happiness i have, i felt real happy today morning. really. though a lot of dumb stuffs happened to me... lol... its ok if u dont wish to commit the way u think what commitment is, but u already did in my opinion. really...
please forgive me baby, reply me soon please... and see you tmr baby. i pray things will get better. i really do. i love you joey.
when i meant for baby to be my girlfriend. i'm not asking for commitment. im asking for extra security. thats all... dont be mistaken, i just wanted to have the feeling of loving you more.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
:)
lol. well while baby was not around with me i kept playing this song to make it feel like we are listening to it tgr. just like those times in nexus when we dont talk to each other but listen to this song instead. hahaha :)
Lyrics to Speechless :
Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you
I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you
You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby
You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you
I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you
You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby
You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you
lol last day
Finally ahhh... Its the last day le. Heh. Now on my way out for lunch with friends. Gonna feel damn weird cos like damn long never meet then dunno what to say. Anyway take train really got freeshow watch haha. There's a freaking reserved seat in front of me and im not intending to sit then this Indian woman just rush over and push me aside so she could sit down. Then she saw other side got sit also she call out to her husband to sit there. Haha joke. Her husband also just rush and push everyone aside. Indians ah Indians. Im hating u lot Liao.
Baby~ back soon le wor! Can't wait for you to be back. I wanna hug u damn badly <3
Baby~ back soon le wor! Can't wait for you to be back. I wanna hug u damn badly <3
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
goodnight, looking forward to the last day!
hey how have you been baby? sleeping well? one more night only! oh my god. haha damn excited. i wonder if u miss me... lol. i sure hope you did. good night baby! sleep tight! love you.
vball trial 2
hey baby. lol. yea today is the 2nd trial. no one came for guys, but girls got the cchy ppl plus one xue rui junior. not too bad from the way it looks la lol. lejie amanda they all came over to talk to mr chua. lol. i wonder what will happen. anyways, haha i really cannot jump le. reaching my limits. so yea, im actually kinda sad... waiting for you to come back make me smile again. :( heh thats about it i guess? tmr night baby will be back le. i just cant wait.
morning!
hahaha. morning baby! :) how have you been? its half way thru the journey le. left with one more day and night. 2 days in fact. lol. things are still going well here. i wonder how are you... :) ytd i had a dream. i dream that i had a car accident. and that u are overseas la. haha, so you came back not knowing what happened to me, and even blamed me openly on twitter blahblah until zi ao told u what happened. lol so weird. a lot of weird dreams im having nowadays. lol. i miss you baby, come back soon... <3
day 2
lol. my face is screwed up i think. gonna sleep le. goodnight baby! im counting down still. missing u like mad... :)
Monday, June 4, 2012
when will u be baccckkkk
lol. i cant find or think of stuffs to do to make u miss you less. are you having fun?? how have you been? haiz... and im constantly worrying and missing you... i wonder what are you thinking bout now?
came across this song today in a music shop... brings back a lot of memories. hahaha. memories, will forever remain as memories. :) im never making the same mistake again.
说好的 幸福呢
你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻
ni de hui hua ling luan zhe, zai zhe ge shi ke
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
wo xiang qi pen quan pang de bai ge, tian mi san luo le
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
qing xu mo ming de la che, wo hai ai ni ne
伴你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
ban ni duan duan xu xu chang zhe ge, jia zuo mei shi le
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
shi jian guo le, zou le, ai qing mian lin xuan ze
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
ni leng le, juan le, wo ku le
一开始都不快乐 你用卡片手写着
yi kai shi dou bu kuai le, ni yong ka pian shou xie zhe
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
you xie ai zhi gei dao zhe, zhen de tong le
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
zen me le, ni lei le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
wo dong le, bu shuo le, ai dan le, meng yuan le
开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍
kai xin yu bu kai xin yi yi xi shu zhe, ni zai bu she
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke, wo dou hai ji de
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
ni bu deng le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
wo cuo le, lei gan le, fang shou le, hou hui le
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe, yao zen me ting ne
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
zen me le, ni lei le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了 我都还记得
wo dong le, bu shuo le, ai dan le, meng yuan le, wo hao dou ji de
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
ni bu deng le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
wo cuo le, lei gan le, fang shou le, hou hui le
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe, yao zen me ting ne
direct translation:
Your response is getting chaotic
At this moment
I think of the dove by the fountain
The sweetness disperses
My sentiments are dragged about for no reason
Do I still love you?
And you're singing the song intermittently
Acting like you're fine
Time has passed
It's gone
You face a choice in love
You're cold
Tired
I've cried
The unhappiness when you left
You write it down onto a card
For some love when you give to this point
It really hurts
What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream has become distant
I count each and every happy and unhappy thing
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them
You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?
What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream is distanced
I count each and every happiness and unhappiness
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them
You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?
How are you right now baby? im constantly thinking bout you... are you taking care of yourself? lol.. be back soon. missing u badly.
说好的 幸福呢
你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻
ni de hui hua ling luan zhe, zai zhe ge shi ke
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
wo xiang qi pen quan pang de bai ge, tian mi san luo le
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
qing xu mo ming de la che, wo hai ai ni ne
伴你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
ban ni duan duan xu xu chang zhe ge, jia zuo mei shi le
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
shi jian guo le, zou le, ai qing mian lin xuan ze
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
ni leng le, juan le, wo ku le
一开始都不快乐 你用卡片手写着
yi kai shi dou bu kuai le, ni yong ka pian shou xie zhe
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
you xie ai zhi gei dao zhe, zhen de tong le
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
zen me le, ni lei le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
wo dong le, bu shuo le, ai dan le, meng yuan le
开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍
kai xin yu bu kai xin yi yi xi shu zhe, ni zai bu she
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke, wo dou hai ji de
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
ni bu deng le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
wo cuo le, lei gan le, fang shou le, hou hui le
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe, yao zen me ting ne
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
zen me le, ni lei le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了 我都还记得
wo dong le, bu shuo le, ai dan le, meng yuan le, wo hao dou ji de
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
ni bu deng le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
wo cuo le, lei gan le, fang shou le, hou hui le
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe, yao zen me ting ne
direct translation:
Your response is getting chaotic
At this moment
I think of the dove by the fountain
The sweetness disperses
My sentiments are dragged about for no reason
Do I still love you?
And you're singing the song intermittently
Acting like you're fine
Time has passed
It's gone
You face a choice in love
You're cold
Tired
I've cried
The unhappiness when you left
You write it down onto a card
For some love when you give to this point
It really hurts
What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream has become distant
I count each and every happy and unhappy thing
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them
You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?
What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream is distanced
I count each and every happiness and unhappiness
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them
You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?
How are you right now baby? im constantly thinking bout you... are you taking care of yourself? lol.. be back soon. missing u badly.
good morning!
hahaha. wake up le mah? how are you? did u sleep well? i miss you. whole night. lol. still got another 2 more days plus... haha. haiyo. hope everything is going on well
Sunday, June 3, 2012
day 1
lol its the first day baby leaving on the cruise le. lol. 5pm, we sure did talk quite a bit. i know u sexy la, but seriously... haha i prefer u keep ur sexiness. lol i dont like people staring at u... u know what i mean, as always. lol. oh well. :) so lets hope time will pass by real soon. because i'm already missing you like mad. so baby, how are you feeling right now? have you eaten? are you having fun? are you taking care of yourself? im constantly thinking bout these.... haha. oh well. hope u have an enjoyable night babe!
and now im officially missing you. i love you
and now im officially missing you. i love you
just wanted to call you so that we both can have a nice sleep tonight. hope things didnt turn out the other way! lol. i never done this anyone before, lol quite scared i will screw things up. oh well. good night baby! i will be waiting for you to tell me loads of wonderful stories! u didnt hurt me much babe, i tot of all those a long time ago, mentally prepared, but still a setback. haha. rhymes eh omg! oh how i love u so much. :) nights baby, see you in 4 days time!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
new life?
come to think bout it, a lot has happened between.... but my heart is still kinda solid. i dunno what that means, i dont even know if its good or bad, for both either you and me. well at least you know that there is one person out here who is constantly behind u that is. after the most recent happening, i felt a great knock back. its like, i've done so much. but nth can be compared to make u think of me. lol. selfish thinking. but since i love you, i just thought maybe i should let u do what u want, and let time decide. if time also couldnt decide then i will decide it. because ultimately i only want you to be happy. and if there is by any chance that thing happening... i have no choice, really. but to let you go. but what happens after that, not for you to care anymore. we cant face each other in sch anymore. i always had this believe, whether in the past or not, just feels this way to me, when you have fully committed and loved a person, if u two ever breakup, the feeling and friendship wont ever be there again. its virtually impossible to be friends again. really. from what i observe of others and myself too. lol. hatred will stand in instead of friendship, hatred for breaking a person's heart. i guess.
oh well. im going too far am i? haha things are going well now aint it. im happy with the way things are. i could spend precious times with you and stuff like that. oh well. mid years coming le. guess we both will be busy. i will be looking forward to you coming back baby. in fact i am already. haha you haven't even leave im already hoping u to be back with me liao. gosh. the month of May sure is a harsh one. so many obstacles between us and stuff. well 10 june i get laptop. 11 june i wanna ask baby out for a date. 11 june kinda special day for us. haha. i hope we can spend it together. unless kim comes that day and u all decides to celebrate it. lol. i dunno. lalalala~ baby. you so pretty, i dont even hope u to be famous. being famous may mean i will have more 'competitors', or more people trying to get closer to you. haha. all those are just fears for me. well, just do what you want, as long as you are happy can le. :) love you baby. hope to see you back real soon!!!! <3
oh well. im going too far am i? haha things are going well now aint it. im happy with the way things are. i could spend precious times with you and stuff like that. oh well. mid years coming le. guess we both will be busy. i will be looking forward to you coming back baby. in fact i am already. haha you haven't even leave im already hoping u to be back with me liao. gosh. the month of May sure is a harsh one. so many obstacles between us and stuff. well 10 june i get laptop. 11 june i wanna ask baby out for a date. 11 june kinda special day for us. haha. i hope we can spend it together. unless kim comes that day and u all decides to celebrate it. lol. i dunno. lalalala~ baby. you so pretty, i dont even hope u to be famous. being famous may mean i will have more 'competitors', or more people trying to get closer to you. haha. all those are just fears for me. well, just do what you want, as long as you are happy can le. :) love you baby. hope to see you back real soon!!!! <3