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again i cried, its been almost everyday since 2 weeks ago. when will it ever stop? just when i tot things are going to get better. another thing came out. whats worse is this is something completely out of my control. why, or how, did this happen all of a sudden. its like... i love you, but i miss another guy, what is this. how do you want me to feel? my heart is broken. i dunno whether its fair or not. or whatsoever, u tell me u are sad, but right now, i dont even know who should really be the one to be sad. you? me? or him? why.... someone please just tell me why. one after another, my life is this screwed. first, failing studies, second, losing physical abilities, and now, this... this is simply, unimaginable a pain for me.