listen to my story

this is the story of my life. the hardships i lived through.

at the tender age of 12, healthy and playful kid. kicking soccer and preparing for psle. unfortunate things happen from then. i dislocated my left elbow. losing strength in my left biceps and arm from then on. and slowly finding a way to regain the strength. 

age 14. met a girl i liked. got into a relationship. doesnt really matter right now. because its over. but i can say im really sorry for treating her so badly. a little to late when i tried to make amendments. too little, too late. let her go to her happiness will be better off. i cried. for weeks. no one knew. standing alone for a few weeks was never easy. 

age 15, doc says im down with acute bronchitis. lung air sacs infection. not at the stage where by i will die. but will affect my performance in sports, and ordered to rest for 3 month. so there goes all my fitness. 

age 16, down with weak ankle. due to a sprain when playing bball. from then on wore ankle guard to play any sports. again. another obstacle affecting my sporting performance.

age 17, failed to understand the meaning of studying. retained in jc. horrible nightmare. yet i lived with that fact. because i accepted it already. 

down with meniscus damage, jumpers knee. totally affected more than 10% of my jumping performance. but i bear with the pain.

age 18, met another girl that i liked. really tried to give my best this time. i failed. no regrets. i cant do anything bout it. cried. again. alone for another few weeks. perhaps months. only i will know. 

dislocated left shoulder 2 weeks before competition. that fear in me was crazy... i had to recover fast. i just had to....

shortly after... down with tendon inflammation due to excessive usage of knee muscles from back injuries... had to rest for 5 months. before receiving shockwave therapy. crazyily expensive treatment. and of course... pain again. like needles hitting your knee consistently... 

now. 25/10/12, im down with bronchitis again. and it got worsened... i have to rely on medication right now... so please dont bring me to places whereby ppl smoke. lol. it will hasten my death. just saying. 

the painful side of me... yet i choose to keep the happy side. as memories instead