vball trial 2

hey baby. lol. yea today is the 2nd trial. no one came for guys, but girls got the cchy ppl plus one xue rui junior. not too bad from the way it looks la lol. lejie amanda they all came over to talk to mr chua. lol. i wonder what will happen. anyways, haha i really cannot jump le. reaching my limits. so yea, im actually kinda sad... waiting for you to come back make me smile again. :( heh thats about it i guess? tmr night baby will be back le. i just cant wait.

morning!

hahaha. morning baby! :) how have you been? its half way thru the journey le. left with one more day and night. 2 days in fact. lol. things are still going well here. i wonder how are you... :) ytd i had a dream. i dream that i had a car accident. and that u are overseas la. haha, so you came back not knowing what happened to me, and even blamed me openly on twitter blahblah until zi ao told u what happened. lol so weird. a lot of weird dreams im having nowadays. lol. i miss you baby, come back soon... <3

day 2

lol. my face is screwed up i think. gonna sleep le. goodnight baby! im counting down still. missing u like mad... :)

when will u be baccckkkk

lol. i cant find or think of stuffs to do to make u miss you less. are you having fun?? how have you been? haiz... and im constantly worrying and missing you... i wonder what are you thinking bout now?

came across this song today in a music shop... brings back a lot of memories. hahaha. memories, will forever remain as memories. :) im never making the same mistake again.
说好的 幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着 在这个时刻
ni de hui hua ling luan zhe, zai zhe ge shi ke
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
wo xiang qi pen quan pang de bai ge, tian mi san luo le
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
qing xu mo ming de la che, wo hai ai ni ne
伴你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
ban ni duan duan xu xu chang zhe ge, jia zuo mei shi le
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
shi jian guo le, zou le, ai qing mian lin xuan ze
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
ni leng le, juan le, wo ku le
一开始都不快乐 你用卡片手写着
yi kai shi dou bu kuai le, ni yong ka pian shou xie zhe
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
you xie ai zhi gei dao zhe, zhen de tong le
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
zen me le, ni lei le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
wo dong le, bu shuo le, ai dan le, meng yuan le
开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍
kai xin yu bu kai xin yi yi xi shu zhe, ni zai bu she
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得 
na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke, wo dou hai ji de
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
ni bu deng le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
wo cuo le, lei gan le, fang shou le, hou hui le
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe, yao zen me ting ne
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
zen me le, ni lei le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了 我都还记得
wo dong le, bu shuo le, ai dan le, meng yuan le, wo hao dou ji de
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
ni bu deng le, shuo hao de, xing fu ne
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
wo cuo le, lei gan le, fang shou le, hou hui le
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe, yao zen me ting ne


direct translation:
Your response is getting chaotic
At this moment
I think of the dove by the fountain
The sweetness disperses


My sentiments are dragged about for no reason
Do I still love you?
And you're singing the song intermittently
Acting like you're fine


Time has passed
It's gone
You face a choice in love
You're cold
Tired
I've cried
The unhappiness when you left
You write it down onto a card
For some love when you give to this point
It really hurts


What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream has become distant
I count each and every happy and unhappy thing
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them


You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?


What's going on?
You're tired
Where's the promised happiness?
I understand
Let's not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream is distanced
I count each and every happiness and unhappiness
Once more you're reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them


You don't wait anymore
Where's the promised happiness?
I was wrong
The tears have dried
I've let go
I've regretted
But the music box in my memories is still spinning
How can I stop it?


How are you right now baby? im constantly thinking bout you... are you taking care of yourself? lol.. be back soon. missing u badly. 

good morning!

hahaha. wake up le mah? how are you? did u sleep well? i miss you. whole night. lol. still got another 2 more days plus... haha. haiyo. hope everything is going on well

lol and the best way to stop missing you for as long as possible, is to go to bed. i dunno what happened at your side. just pray that u are safe and sound. good night dear! im counting dow. 3 more days. :)

day 1

lol its the first day baby leaving on the cruise le. lol. 5pm, we sure did talk quite a bit. i know u sexy la, but seriously... haha i prefer u keep ur sexiness. lol i dont like people staring at u... u know what i mean, as always. lol. oh well. :) so lets hope time will pass by real soon. because i'm already missing you like mad. so baby, how are you feeling right now? have you eaten? are you having fun? are you taking care of yourself? im constantly thinking bout these.... haha. oh well. hope u have an enjoyable night babe!

and now im officially missing you. i love you

just wanted to call you so that we both can have a nice sleep tonight. hope things didnt turn out the other way! lol. i never done this anyone before, lol quite scared i will screw things up. oh well. good night baby! i will be waiting for you to tell me loads of wonderful stories! u didnt hurt me much babe, i tot of all those a long time ago, mentally prepared, but still a setback. haha. rhymes eh omg! oh how i love u so much. :) nights baby, see you in 4 days time!

new life?

come to think bout it, a lot has happened between.... but my heart is still kinda solid. i dunno what that means, i dont even know if its good or bad, for both either you and me. well at least you know that there is one person out here who is constantly behind u that is. after the most recent happening, i felt a great knock back. its like, i've done so much. but nth can be compared to make u think of me. lol. selfish thinking. but since i love you, i just thought maybe i should let u do what u want, and let time decide. if time also couldnt decide then i will decide it. because ultimately i only want you to be happy. and if there is by any chance that thing happening... i have no choice, really. but to let you go. but what happens after that, not for you to care anymore. we cant face each other in sch anymore. i always had this believe, whether in the past or not, just feels this way to me, when you have fully committed and loved a person, if u two ever breakup, the feeling and friendship wont ever be there again. its virtually impossible to be friends again. really. from what i observe of others and myself too. lol. hatred will stand in instead of friendship, hatred for breaking a person's heart. i guess.

oh well. im going too far am i? haha things are going well now aint it. im happy with the way things are. i could spend precious times with you and stuff like that. oh well. mid years coming le. guess we both will be busy. i will be looking forward to you coming back baby. in fact i am already. haha you haven't even leave im already hoping u to be back with me liao. gosh. the month of May sure is a harsh one. so many obstacles between us and stuff. well 10 june i get laptop. 11 june i wanna ask baby out for a date. 11 june kinda special day for us. haha. i hope we can spend it together. unless kim comes that day and u all decides to celebrate it. lol. i dunno. lalalala~ baby. you so pretty, i dont even hope u to be famous. being famous may mean i will have more 'competitors', or more people trying to get closer to you. haha. all those are just fears for me. well, just do what you want, as long as you are happy can le. :) love you baby. hope to see you back real soon!!!! <3